hello dear readers.the pix below are both taken by abg uni on his trip to chiang mai sometime last year.in my crappy mood,pictures like these are so meaningful. thank you abang!
these pic is a monk by the way.

well...altho im feeling more of sucky than happy now,
but lets start with a clear and fun soul.

Salvation army was VERY, super fun. Hehe. i went to meet sheena,rahman and raj at jurong eastMRT. After collecting our donation bags,we board on the mrt and head off to nowhere. Inside the mrt,we started quarelling on the destination. I say Bugis. Rahman say churches or temples. Raj says Geylang.Sheena says Orchard. Sumeet?well.i dunno.Little india?
in the end,we alighted at Raffles Place. and waste sum tym AT the Mrt platforms.
At last,we decided to head off to Orchard :)

Well,we took the wrong Mrt to Orchard and get lost at marina bay. But,it was SUPER fun in Marina bay!!!the flooring on the Mrt platform was slippery!! At first,rahman and me almost fell down. But in the end,it turn out to be a game as we played sliding here and there like little 5 yrs old children when we are 15 PLS!!! We were like stupid GONGS going out of the MRT just to play sliding. and the nest minute we were back sitting down on the right same MRT.hahaha...

then.we head off to Orchard and did our donation. people was so generous altho i was rejected a couple of times too.hehe..after enough collection,we went to eat lucnh at MAC. After that,we went back to the MRT station Orchard to go where???CHUA CHU KANG!!
we went to LOT 1 to look for rahman Teenstar idol possible clothes!!!woohoo.the white one was noicee..but salesgirl dont be attitude laa.stewpeed.
so yea...actually most of the time was spend in the MRT.hehehe...thank you guys for the crap.and fun and laughs and secret talks with sheena.really made my day:D

so..now.lets start about the downfall.
it was me to blame for telling kak s late.
it was my fault for not telling inah about the food and van.
it was my fault for lastminute work.
bravo aishah.just bravo.
it was me for not having my own intiatives.
it was my fault that everything didnt turn out to be.

but was it my fault that fate changes it??
was it my fault that test just comes together with my first collection??
was it my fault that van didnt turn up??
was it my fault that the light wasnt off??
was it my fault that i cant give what he wants?
was itt??
why do i feel all mistakes are all my faults? why do i keep on picking on others?? why do OTHERS like to pick on me!!i just feel ...irritated.angry.dissapointed.FUCK.
and saying FUCK just too often this few days arent really helping but it makes me feel LOTS.LOADS BETTER.

to those who have been asking,this shall answer ur curiosity.
im not ready and i look weaker than i actually really am.