i feel so weak to break down in front of every single one of you who attended yesterday's meeting. its just that i have hold back the tears fo so long.days??maybe even weeks. the reason that i cried, is not because of some random qn by abg dayat.
It was CIP+homeworks+results of everything+sense of guilt for NP(where i feel they blame me for the letter thingy). it was every thing that suck rolled together in that short cry. i wasnt really emotionally stable since the time i go for that meeting.im tired.STRESSED.sick. irritated with every single person in my life!!SICK.FUCK. i did NOT cry because people did not turn out. But,i cried because i feel hopeless and useless in this project.FCUK. MYE coming and the burning sensation and stress is just too rushing,fast-moving,overwhelming for me. Do not feel sorry for me.i repeat.DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR ME!! i will just move on..and forget.as always.
and yesterday night, i could not sleep.i cried knowing how screwed up my life was. again and again the tears just fell.for whole sucky reason rolled together. FCUK.ended up,i did maths practice and felt better.and...fell asleep after tired looking at formulas at 3.50am.i think. and...this song is sooo right for me.i feel weak.sensitive.useless. ____________________________________________ STOP HelloGoodbye.Listen to Untitled.
I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream!!! How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't
How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me?!?!
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Do not feel sorry.
AISHAH ,
♥ Hello wello.
HEYho!, i'm AISHAH (:
Turning 17 this year. Simplicity suits me.
im not strong and i try to be myself all th time.
i dont hate others but i cant stand people who think they know so much.
At th end of th day, frm a simple "HELLO,omg!" can lead to friendship for years(:
pioneerjc
09S28
♥ Wishes
▪ COTTONON shirts
▪ checkers top
▪ new school
▪ new jeans
▪ o lebel
▪ adidas bag
▪ puma/adidas sweater
▪ drama or soccer or bahas!
▪ hair rebond
